Keep my ideals high and my morals intact.
From Women Who run with the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, page 309:
The Hindus say that without Shakti, the personified feminine life force, Shiva, who encompasses the ability to act, becomes a corpse. She is the life energy that animates the male principle, and the male principle in turn animates action in the world.
I’ve always had a mind/body disconnect. I think and imagine but have extreme difficulty acting–there’s no lack of wanting to act–just a deficit in making my body perform so to speak.
It seems obvious that I’m out of balance. Recent blood work shows my hormones are one-sided, a lot of testosterone, less estrogen. But most interestingly is that my androstenedione hormone was off the charts. My understanding is that androstenedione is basically a stepping stone in the creation of testosterone/estrogen. For whatever reason, it’s as though there’s a dam in my system and my androstenedione isn’t flowing to become what it’s meant to become–whatever that may be.
I think I there’s a block on my feminine energy. I googled how to improve my feminine energy, my female life force, and I got a lot of results regarding attracting male attention. Not exactly what I meant. I found some better results when I searched how to improve yin energy. Here are some tips/thoughts that do make sense to me:
- Move – movement of any kind will typically always increase feminine energy. Dance freely without being conscious of who is watching you, make it seductive.. feminine energy gets activated by movement. (Source)
- Eat the right foods – drink spearmint tea instead of your regular tea. Spearmint is known to control and lower testosterone levels. A Turkish study showed that PCOS women who drank 2 cups of spearmint tea every day for a month showed a significant reduction in the level of excess androgen. (Source)
- Rest up: You may not feel “allowed” to rest but be aware that the more you wear yourself out the less productive you will be. An exhausted body or mind cannot render good results either at home or at work. (Source)
- Self-love: Pointing out at least one thing in the mirror that you actually like about yourself, and that you’re excited to see. (Source)
Feeling like wonder woman. I work, I cook, I clean, I run, I travel, I create. All in a lady day’s work, right? I am awesome. 😛