Feminine Life Force

From Women Who run with the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, page 309:

The Hindus say that without Shakti, the personified feminine life force, Shiva, who encompasses the ability to act, becomes a corpse. She is the life energy that animates the male principle, and the male principle in turn animates action in the world.

I’ve always had a mind/body disconnect. I think and imagine but have extreme difficulty acting–there’s no lack of wanting to act–just a deficit in making my body perform so to speak.

It seems obvious that I’m out of balance. Recent blood work shows my hormones are one-sided, a lot of testosterone, less estrogen. But most interestingly is that my androstenedione hormone was off the charts. My understanding is that androstenedione is basically a stepping stone in the creation of testosterone/estrogen. For whatever reason, it’s as though there’s a dam in my system and my androstenedione isn’t flowing to become what it’s meant to become–whatever that may be.

I think I there’s a block on my feminine energy. I googled how to improve my feminine energy, my female life force, and I got a lot of results regarding attracting male attention. Not exactly what I meant. I found some better results when I searched how to improve yin energy. Here are some tips/thoughts that do make sense to me:

  • Move – movement of any kind will typically always increase feminine energy. Dance freely without being conscious of who is watching you, make it seductive.. feminine energy gets activated by movement. (Source)
  • Eat the right foods – drink spearmint tea instead of your regular tea. Spearmint is known to control and lower testosterone levels. A Turkish study showed that PCOS women who drank 2 cups of spearmint tea every day for a month showed a significant reduction in the level of excess androgen. (Source)
  • Rest up: You may not feel “allowed” to rest but be aware that the more you wear yourself out the less productive you will be. An exhausted body or mind cannot render good results either at home or at work. (Source)
  • Self-love: Pointing out at least one thing in the mirror that you actually like about yourself, and that you’re excited to see. (Source)
Feminine Life Force

What I Love You Means

Man, it hasn’t been since Dan Savage that I’ve really fallen for a man’s advice column, but Isaac Huss pens Gentlemen Speak over at Verily Mag and he gets it right so often. Huss’ column seems equal parts advising men on relationships and explaining why men do things they do. I just read Huss’s “WAIT TO SAY “I LOVE YOU”” and it’s reassuring to realize that at least one man out there understands the meaning of I love you. Given the number of times I’ve heard it, followed by actions that don’t reflect it, a lot of men still have a lot to figure out.

That’s because there’s a difference between telling somebody you love them and actually intending to love them. That is, telling somebody you love them is just lip service and actually loving someone is work.

What I Love You Means

Role Model

And this is how I want to live my life:

The prolific and popular French novelist Aurore Dupin was better known by her pseudonym George Sand. Few 19th-century women matched her rowdy behavior. She wore men’s clothes, smoked cigars, was a staunch feminist, and frequented social venues where only men were normally allowed. Yet she was also a doting mother to her two children, and loved to garden, make jam, and do needlework. Among her numerous lovers were the writers Alfred de Musset, Jules Sandeau, and Prosper Mérimée, as well as composer Frederic Chopin and actress Marie Dorval. Her preferred work schedule was midnight to 6 a.m., and she often slept until 3 p.m. “What a brave man she was,” said Russian author Ivan Turgenev, “and what a good woman.” Her astrological sign? The same as you and me. She’s feisty proof that not all of us Crabs are conventional fuddy-duddies. In the coming weeks, she’s our inspirational role model.

From the ever wonderful, Rob Breezy’s Free Will Astrology for the week of February 26.

Role Model

Love & Forgiveness

The spiritual work of being human is learning how to love and how to forgive.

– Kerry Egan, My Faith: What people talk about before they die

I like the above post a lot, and that quote stuck out to me. I’ve been dealt my share of hard blows in life — not worse or more than anyone else’s, but mine nevertheless — and I wonder if some people (me included) already know how to love, and so our spiritual growth comes from having to learn how to forgive. Loving is easy for me, forgiveness is not. And maybe it needs to be.

To Forgive

  • to stop feeling anger toward (someone who has done something wrong) : to stop blaming (someone)
  • to stop feeling anger about (something) : to forgive someone for (something wrong)
  • to stop requiring payment of (money that is owed)
Love & Forgiveness